And the day goes on....

Well the day has gotten better, really. We all went out to eat and had an enjoyable dinner and even dessert of ooey gooey caramel pie for the birthday peoples. Josh has told me that I can have a dog. Now dont get me wrong I WANT a dog. Yes, we have a dog. But he is not mine or even our dog. he is the kids dog and only loves them, or lets them play with him and or pet him. which i miss a great deal. I like a dog that will let me love oh him or her. I miss a big dog in my house for me to pat and love and ok yes, I miss my Bubba dog. I know in my heart a dog is probably a bad idea, with all the changes that will be going on in the house in the coming months and what not, or atleast those I want to happen. But I honest and true want a dog. I dont know if it is that part of me that just wants someone there when im alone(besides the cat, who owns me and not the other way around). Part of me thinks that I am missing Josh being "here" and I want to replace him with a dog. Which mind you is a very appealing thought at times....When it comes down to it I am just not sure why I want a dog so badly, or even the dog that I have begun looking at daily on the Humane Society site.....it is his eyes, something in his eyes that calls to me more than any of the others I have seen even....sigh. I know I want him, I know he needs someone, and I need someone...but I dont know if I am his someone. Perhaps I will know after a nights sleep and some consulting. ♥♥♥♥